Hi You,
B, a letter just for you…
You know I’m an over thinker, I’m working on it, and conversations stay with me. What we talk about resonates in me. I’ve told you before you make me want to be a better person inside. To be a better human for me, you, your girls, and those in my life. You snuck in my heart fast and stayed. I’ve been scared. I’ve let past fears affect you, us, the energy that I carry. I haven’t represented well what I know to be true in my heart. You’ve been the most patient, the most gracious, the most understanding I could ever dream of and can’t express enough how grateful I am and lucky I am to know you.
Hearing your laugh, seeing you smile, feeling your energy, excitement, lights up my days. I want to always see you happy. Not stepford wife happy, but truly excited about your life. I want to see you achieve your goals and watch you watch your dreams come true. I want to be next to you when you do. Holding your hand through the process and only being a positive support for like you are for me. You encourage me, you support me, you talk with me through things. You make me radiate. So much so it can be felt hundreds of miles away over the phone. I have never heard my dad say that to me ever. Ever.
I want you to know what’s in my heart, to feel it everyday. To never doubt it. From the moment we started talking my intentions for you have been pure…though the thoughts about us together aren’t always pure. I may frustrate you sometimes (unintentionally) but I will never do anything to hurt you. I am not going to break your heart. Because…
In the car the other day as we were talking about our show, I said to you, “that I haven’t said the words out loud yet, because I didn’t want there to be any pressure, but sometimes it’s so hard not to tell you.” You told me than “you should just say…”
…B, I love lamp.
Now I ask you, are you going to break mine?
xoxo
Letters to You 