Author Archives: catbconnelly

Hi You, Follow Up Appointment – Part One Ok, I actually had this letter written last week, but didn’t give it to you. I have no excuses. Truly. But let me catch you up. Two weeks ago, now, I went back for my 4-month labs with Dr. B. To see if my iron levels hadContinue reading “July 15, 2021”

Hi You, Tomorrow I go back to work, and honestly, I’m not ready. I have those Sunday feels. I rarely write about work, as I do my best to keep my work and personal life separate. But when one starts to bleed into the other, something needs to give. I love my job, the roleContinue reading “July 1, 2021”

Hello You, Narcissism, this is a non-negotiable in my life. But why am I a magnet for it? Someone recently told me, we attract the parts of us we haven’t explored or healed yet. Since I could remember, I’ve been trying to win over the love of my dad. From the outside, you would haveContinue reading “June 18, 2021”

Hi You, 5am and I’m wide awake, so many thoughts swimming through my head and my heart. Normally I would try to force myself to go back to bed, it’s my day off, the time I actually get to “sleep in.” Though that really just means, I’m still up early but I lay here aContinue reading “June 8, 2021”

Hello You, Today, as I was walking down my beach, I was suddenly somewhere else. I was back on that pier. Waiting. Watching. Anticipating his return. I could feel the wind on my face. I could smell that beautiful Hawaiian air. I could hear the families standing around me. I could see the ship inContinue reading “May 26, 2021”

Hello You, I’m procrastinating writing my letter this week. What am I going to say? How am I going to start? Will I find the right words? When I put their name on the list, I was secretly waiting for it to be drawn. I was excited. However, now that it’s their turn, I’m notContinue reading “May 20, 2021”

Hi You,   S and I Part Four – The End  Skipping ahead almost 5 years, sometime June of 2010, I had just woken up from a nap when S came in and sat on the side of the bed. We looked at each other and knew exactly what the other one was thinking. It was time we made aContinue reading “May 5, 2021”

Hi You, I’ve been struggling this week to feel connected. My confidence, which is usually not very high, has been suffering. I’ve started many letters but nothing seemed to flow. I kept thinking, “no that’s not good enough to say, nobody wants to hear that.” But how is that? It’s my voice. It’s my story.Continue reading “April 28, 2021”

Hello You, I’ll come back to S and I, Part Four, later. 363 days to another milestone and it’s hitting me harder than I thought. Ha. Growing up, at my dad’s, we celebrated birthdays for three days. They said, you wait all year for that one day to come, and then it is over inContinue reading “April 18, 2021”

Hi You, S and I Part Three – A Crack in the Planet, Again and Again and Again… Have you seen the movie, Spanglish? For me, Adam Sandler’s character summed it up perfectly when his wife tells him she cheated on him, “I couldn’t hear you. There was a crack in the planet. WOW… thatContinue reading “April 11, 2021”